do not cast away your confidence, for it brings great rewards


life, frozen at its best.

life is a neverending runway.

LIVE LOUD.

LIVE WILD.

LIVE WITH NO REGRETS.
LADY.
PAMELA KHOO
15 jun
Early Childhood Education
Child Of God
Let it out

2:17 AM, Friday, May 15, 2009

i hate it because you dont even care and here i am, hurting deep inside.
i hate it when it doesnt even bother you one single bit and here i am, tormenting myself with all these emotions.


i hate it when i had to deal with my emotional baggage caused by YOU, ALONE.
a heart never breaks even. never.


i hate the fact that i have to control my heart so badly, preventing it from aching each time i think of you and speak of you.


i hate the fact that you have moved on at the speed of light.
i abhor the fact that you are running away from the problem, avoiding the issue as much as you can.



today i went through the notion of relating everything that has happened between us to my girls.
and my heart ached just as much, if not more, than before.



not because of the fact that you are no longer in my life.
not because of the fact that you are no longer a part of me.
not because of the fact that we are friends now.
not because of the fact that we have gone our separate ways.



but because,just because,
i was never in your life right from the start.
i was never in the picture.
everything was a plot by you and i am just a chess piece in your game of life.



one wrong move and you chose to run away forever.
one mistake and you chose to hide.
why are you such a coward. seriously.


at the end of the day, you are the one who chose to run away from the problem.
keep running then, dont ever stop.
because if you ever did, thats when you will realise that you've lost many precious moments, people included.



i chose to forget about you because I WANT TO, not that i have to.
so DONT, i repeat, DONT, for one split second, think that i am caught up in you.



to those who genuinely care for me, i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
i thank God for you.


you know who you are.
i dont like to make things too obvious; its either you get it or you dont.
my actions always speak louder than my words.


if you dont, dont bother trying.
dont waste my time.



to those of who are unable to comprehend or even show empathy towards how i am feeling, what i am talking about. i would appreciate if you would keep your mouth shut, your comments to yourself and live your own life.



make this world a better place please, shut the fuck up.




i cant be bothered to share with people like you, and i dont wish to also. feel sad for yourself alright, not me.
because people like you dont matter to me as much as before or at all, its as simple as that.




get a life,
and get OUT of mine.

in the first place, were you even in it?