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life, frozen at its best.
life is a neverending runway. LIVE LOUD. LIVE WILD. LIVE WITH NO REGRETS.
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LADY.
PAMELA KHOO15 jun Early Childhood Education Child Of God |
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Let it out |
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12:51 AM, Friday, May 8, 2009 a bruise that increased from the size of a 20 cent coin to that of a 50 cent coin, a blister that is sore, red and painful. not forgetting two more bruises on my left knee cap. lately, bruises upon bruises. not that i dont know how it happened, i simply dont care. just to feel the pain as i live each day, could be, one of the ways for me to feel alive. i cant stop my mind from being busy; i need to occupy my mind. as much as i could. the memories surfaced the very minute my mind's free. every little bit reminds me of you. even some of the words i speak are from you. then i realised that you are gone, away from my life, away from me, away from us. gone. i chose to chase you out of my life, literally. i had to, because of the situation that we are in. i ended everything. i know i would be more painful holding on than letting go. and its not that you cant meet my expectations, the fact is that you dont want to. you dont bother. you dont care. you dont give a damn. THAT, IS WHAT HURTS ME THE MOST. in the end, we chose to give up. what else is there to say. _____________________________________________________ on a brighter note, it was great talking to sinting on the phone today after so long. though its a short while, i enjoyed it. i miss you brother. very much. ______________________________________________________ how good it would be to be able to call the person that you are missing whenever you feel like it, isnt it. if only i could do that with you. |